Friendship

Friends...who can live without friends? It's a huge shock to come into the midst of friends after a period of solitude; it's like coming back to 20 degrees of Potsdam from 87 degrees Florida, except warmer, a lot warmer. I wonder what makes me believe that I can survive without friends? Maybe it is a result of being told in my younger years that I had too many friends; maybe it is a selfish pride that does not want to give because it cares for itself or receive because I think I can do it on my own. Whatever it is, it is a wonderful place to draw strength from; it's just like a man who sees his house, which he worked all his life for, going down in flames and runs into the acridity and darkness to save his cats. When he emerges on the other side, cats bundled up in terror against him, he understands that the important things in his life; he realizes that the loss of his house was not that bad after all: he appreciates the feline creatures completely at that moment. I've seen my house go up in flames, and I have gone in and saved my cats, and even though I will mourn my house, I experience not only solace, but true joy from the mewing cats in my arms.

Friendships are very easily made and very easily broken. In their early stages, they are like shooting stars, shining brightly for a period, and then they disappear. After this, someone has to go in search of the dust the stars leave behind, and often, an incredible surprise awaits: love. Isn't that incredible? Isn't that what we all want? Love? Ah God how can we not hear Your voice at times? After all you've done for us; after all the pieces of stardust you've blown onto our paths; how can we forget. How can't we forget? The world weighs us down; it makes its demands on us. Delusion is compulsive. We are deluded into thinking the world is real (now I sound like John Nash, no insult intended to his personage), which it is in a certain manner of thinking. But really, this world is just a thin veil in front of a very real spiritual world where God reigns over everything. The only reason we don't see His kingdom is because we are on the Island of the Lotus eaters and with every bite of the lotus we share with the natives causes our minds to circumvent the otherwise obvious world that God has laid out.

Where is the man that will look eye to eye with God?
I'll do it and die, if He suffers me. Why do I want to continue living in this schizophrenic state? Hmm....because I have a destiny, we all have our individual destinies: God has a perfect plan for our lives and it will cause Him pain if we don't live it out. Go out there peoples, the world, our world, desires to be reigned over.

I love Labib.