More of God

"The full soul loatheth an honeycomb; but to the hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet."

The full soul...The hungry soul...The content soul...The longing soul...the soul...
Isn't it really neat how we see ourselves oscillate from one end of this pendulum to the other? It's not like the body, where a consistent workout spanning a long period of time almost seems to make the body conform to the "worked out" structure, even after the individual stops frequenting the gym. Our soul breaks down if it is not constantly being tended to. It almost seems like a 40 year old child that never leaves his mother's basement. It is grown and "mature", but it still needs constant love and attention.
I remember the days when "I" was making extraordinary forays into the spiritual, when God lead me everywhere I went and I was conscious of it. When I went to bed because He said it was OK to, I stayed up and prayed because I needed to (and I wanted to), I cried because His presence was too much for me to comprehend. Now, I read my Bible and go to class. I need an adventure. China maybe? I don't think so. NYSUM...I need an adventure. Maybe that's why I haven't written my book in a while, I do not feel the adventure as much as I should.
Maybe it's from not reading the "red letters" of Jesus and from confining myself to the wisdom of Proverbs. But, I don't really think so. I don't know. Oh yes, I do.

I know all things through Christ who strengthens me. I am not in despair. I just want more of God, can you see?